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Friday, February 10, 2012
5am rambling.
So it's 5am and I have consumed too much caffeine yet my mind feels pretty fried, so this post will just be a bunch of ramble about what has transpired during the week and random stuff.
I have completely effed my sleeping pattern again -_-
I got into this routine of sleeping at midnight and waking up at 8am, but now it's almost bed time at 8am and wake up not long after.. terrible.
I believe im stuck in a rut. I really need to get a job fast !!
I get a gym membership so I can become less lazy and lethargic, and all it has done is eaten away at my wallet whilst I lay in bed watching tv thinking "I could go to the gym today but (insert lame excuses here)"
But anyway this is hopefully only a short phase, and ill be back to awesome.
Speaking of awesome; moving plans.
So last post I had written about moving in with my sister, right? well, her lease ends soon so we are house hunting for a place by the beach in Glenelg. Emailed some agents, fingers and toes are crossed that we get this certain place we fell in love with. Just thinking about it gets me all excited!
To be honest, it's been a quiet week !
Went to see my friend Lucy's new apartment on Tuesday, it's so cute. We blew our budget at Brunelli's, and I went to bed with the worst stomach cramps. Spent Wednesday day bed ridden, Visit from Liam that night to watch the new episode of New Girl and get some subway. Thursday late night shopping with Michael, which brings us to today where I rolled around on the living room floor watching The Hills.
I haven't really got a lot of thoughts that make sense at... 5:31am. While my brains high on caffeine and my body is slowly falling asleep, I'm finding it really difficult to write this blog haha.
This feeling is too common. I should really do something about it.
POINTLESS POST, FINITO.
I have completely effed my sleeping pattern again -_-
I got into this routine of sleeping at midnight and waking up at 8am, but now it's almost bed time at 8am and wake up not long after.. terrible.
I believe im stuck in a rut. I really need to get a job fast !!
I get a gym membership so I can become less lazy and lethargic, and all it has done is eaten away at my wallet whilst I lay in bed watching tv thinking "I could go to the gym today but (insert lame excuses here)"
But anyway this is hopefully only a short phase, and ill be back to awesome.
Speaking of awesome; moving plans.
So last post I had written about moving in with my sister, right? well, her lease ends soon so we are house hunting for a place by the beach in Glenelg. Emailed some agents, fingers and toes are crossed that we get this certain place we fell in love with. Just thinking about it gets me all excited!
To be honest, it's been a quiet week !
Went to see my friend Lucy's new apartment on Tuesday, it's so cute. We blew our budget at Brunelli's, and I went to bed with the worst stomach cramps. Spent Wednesday day bed ridden, Visit from Liam that night to watch the new episode of New Girl and get some subway. Thursday late night shopping with Michael, which brings us to today where I rolled around on the living room floor watching The Hills.
I haven't really got a lot of thoughts that make sense at... 5:31am. While my brains high on caffeine and my body is slowly falling asleep, I'm finding it really difficult to write this blog haha.
This feeling is too common. I should really do something about it.
POINTLESS POST, FINITO.
Sunday, February 5, 2012
August - Present.
Gosh. I haven't blogged in such a long time. August 17th - present, so much has happened.
I feel I stopped blogging because after my positive happy with life post, things became a bit bleak and I had a lot to sort out emotionally.
Well, from August - now, you have missed out on:
Lows.
- I became pretty sick at one stage. Blood tests were taken but I never found out what was wrong. It passed. I came to the conclusion it was my body reacting badly to a medication I just got off of after 9 years. That was fun ha.
- had a birthday, organized an awesome event, had to cancel it. Due to being unsure if I'd be well enough for it, and because I just wasn't in the mood anymore. I planned to have a joined birthday with the boyfriend but we ended so thinking about going through with it just made me feel crapper lol.
- yeah, relationship ended. I still don't know why. It went from my fault to not my fault to a million stupid reasons, like 'my texts are too long and frequent'. I had my friends contact me telling me he was trying to get with them. Telling them a lot of untrue things such as 'Bec has moved on with other men, I can pretend it doesn't hurt but it does' which was far from the truth and seeking comfort in his own doing just got to me even more as he didn't realize during that period of time all I could do is lay in bed crying being a woman. This kind of caused a big downward spiral in what was beginning to feel like the perfect life. Lost my job, got ridiculously sick, couldnt pay rent, couldnt afford to eat anymore, more family drama, lost the person who meant the most to me. Let's just say I did not take it well at all.
- whole outlook on life became crappy, which caused a change in my attitude for a while.
- drinking a little too much the worse things got. From being sick, I missed my exams. I tried to organize a way around it, called them up and I was told I can only repeat next semester but I couldn't get a refund. This sucked because, I didn't have a job so I couldnt afford to continue my study. That made me feel pretty fail.
- August until now, I have had a few interviews, the more I was rejected, the harder I took it. It's life though! Bound to happen. Still unemployed though.
- Christmas without the family. It's just a day so it's not a big deal but the problem with it was because of some fall outs in the family, I felt I was punished despite putting on a fake face to make my family happy and hope it could make the day somewhat bare able. Everybody had family to go to. Brother and sister spent it in Sydney, mum and dad spent it with extended family in Queensland. It was the first Christmas without my parents. I just missed the little things, like, mums over ecstatic-ness and amazing food preparing, dad dressing as Santa XD laying in the sun with the dogs listening to cheesy Christmas music.
Highs
- a group of friends celebrated my birthday with me regardless and surprised me with cake at midnight. I felt so happy I could have cried lol, it was exactly what I needed at the time.
- I moved out of Urbanest. This should be a low. It was great in theory. I won't forget the amazing times I had there but things got way too tough and by the end of it, I really needed a change of scenery.
I live with my sister now. Rent still isn't really affordable but I'm managing. Late night marathons of Sex and the City, The Hills etc. girly chats until all hours of the morning <3
- seeing more of my amazing friends. Reuniting with old school friends. This has meant the most to me really.
- attending more events. Went to stereosonic, birthdays, outings to the Duke + other places. Some of the best memories came out of these.
- met someone who makes me smile. As gay as this is all going to sound -_- I think my outlook on things has improved dramatically since having this certain somebody in my life. I'm very thankful.
Watch this space for awesome blogging again. I just had to get this not so positive post out the way first.
I feel I stopped blogging because after my positive happy with life post, things became a bit bleak and I had a lot to sort out emotionally.
Well, from August - now, you have missed out on:
Lows.
- I became pretty sick at one stage. Blood tests were taken but I never found out what was wrong. It passed. I came to the conclusion it was my body reacting badly to a medication I just got off of after 9 years. That was fun ha.
- had a birthday, organized an awesome event, had to cancel it. Due to being unsure if I'd be well enough for it, and because I just wasn't in the mood anymore. I planned to have a joined birthday with the boyfriend but we ended so thinking about going through with it just made me feel crapper lol.
- yeah, relationship ended. I still don't know why. It went from my fault to not my fault to a million stupid reasons, like 'my texts are too long and frequent'. I had my friends contact me telling me he was trying to get with them. Telling them a lot of untrue things such as 'Bec has moved on with other men, I can pretend it doesn't hurt but it does' which was far from the truth and seeking comfort in his own doing just got to me even more as he didn't realize during that period of time all I could do is lay in bed crying being a woman. This kind of caused a big downward spiral in what was beginning to feel like the perfect life. Lost my job, got ridiculously sick, couldnt pay rent, couldnt afford to eat anymore, more family drama, lost the person who meant the most to me. Let's just say I did not take it well at all.
- whole outlook on life became crappy, which caused a change in my attitude for a while.
- drinking a little too much the worse things got. From being sick, I missed my exams. I tried to organize a way around it, called them up and I was told I can only repeat next semester but I couldn't get a refund. This sucked because, I didn't have a job so I couldnt afford to continue my study. That made me feel pretty fail.
- August until now, I have had a few interviews, the more I was rejected, the harder I took it. It's life though! Bound to happen. Still unemployed though.
- Christmas without the family. It's just a day so it's not a big deal but the problem with it was because of some fall outs in the family, I felt I was punished despite putting on a fake face to make my family happy and hope it could make the day somewhat bare able. Everybody had family to go to. Brother and sister spent it in Sydney, mum and dad spent it with extended family in Queensland. It was the first Christmas without my parents. I just missed the little things, like, mums over ecstatic-ness and amazing food preparing, dad dressing as Santa XD laying in the sun with the dogs listening to cheesy Christmas music.
Highs
- a group of friends celebrated my birthday with me regardless and surprised me with cake at midnight. I felt so happy I could have cried lol, it was exactly what I needed at the time.
- I moved out of Urbanest. This should be a low. It was great in theory. I won't forget the amazing times I had there but things got way too tough and by the end of it, I really needed a change of scenery.
I live with my sister now. Rent still isn't really affordable but I'm managing. Late night marathons of Sex and the City, The Hills etc. girly chats until all hours of the morning <3
- seeing more of my amazing friends. Reuniting with old school friends. This has meant the most to me really.
- attending more events. Went to stereosonic, birthdays, outings to the Duke + other places. Some of the best memories came out of these.
- met someone who makes me smile. As gay as this is all going to sound -_- I think my outlook on things has improved dramatically since having this certain somebody in my life. I'm very thankful.
Watch this space for awesome blogging again. I just had to get this not so positive post out the way first.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
long time.
Victoria Justice *_*
hah, regular blogging. It never happened >_<
There is just too much awesome is happening in the real world to sit and blog every night.
So many assignments making my brain explode. But on the other hand it amazes me how much new knowledge i'm absorbing every day! I look forward to new assignments and sitting in lectures. Isn't that strange.
Work didn't need me anymore, so they fired me. At first I was a bit uneasy about this due to money, but I got that all sorted now I can live without a job, Thankfully, Because I would really like to focus on study the next year and a half !
So really there was a major positive to that negative.
I have been noticing the positives to every negative that has occurred recently, and many life lessons along the way. It's great really.
To much amazing things to blog about, so I won't. But everything is 100% awesome in every aspect.
Doing a lot of iCarly / Victorious watching
aaaaand back to study.
Friday, July 22, 2011
Tuesday - Friday
These two photos..
Note to self: if you don’t want to do things, pick up something so you look busy ><.
Facebook really does get in the way of things. It will be the first thing I do when I go onto the net. So bad ~_~ intense study is coming up too. Must restrain from updating regularly !
I haven’t been blogging in the past few days because I became too busy, then my internet decided to die, so I will recap the past few days !
Other than working, I went to an Information Seminar on Tuesday for TAFE. Pretty boring day was had. I was beginning to feel pretty sick too \:
Wednesday , I had to take work off because I felt pretty sick in the morning. My friend was popping by town late afternoon, In hope I had a dinner buddy, I took some pain killers, I kept my fluids up, Met with him and went grocery shopping The boyfriend was feeling pretty down and confused for the past few days, so to cheer him up, I bought him a hat ! Specific style hat he had been after for almost a year, since he lost his first one. So I thought it would be a good surprise!
After grocery shopping, we couldn’t resist some half price sushi, so we bought pumpkin and sweet potato sushi <3 the best !
BEGAN THE COOKING.
Today, Malaysian Curry with Bok Choy, mini corns, Bamboo shoots, beans and carrot.
Step 1, Cut ingredients.
Step 2, cook the vegetables ^_^
Step 3, add curry sauce.
Step 4, the best step, EAT. Serve with an amazing drink.
Previous post, I had tasted my first Chai Hot Choc at my favourite dessert place ! so I tried to make it at home. Next time I won’t use choc soy milk, But choc powder and full cream milk instead. it still tasted pretty amazing :D
The bf arrived within 5mins after my friend leaving.
The smile stayed for quite a while, which was my goal, it was good to see him happy <3 (dodgy blurry photo due to walking at same time)
Stayed up late just chatting, time went so fast and next minute it was 5am 0_0” WILL NOT get back into that pattern !
Ronnie : I’m hungry ! BRB SAUSAGE AND EGG MC MUFFIN !
He returned with a bagel for me <3 and his mc muffin. A rather amazing (yet unhealthy) 5am snack.
Thursday, Went to tafe to sort out my lessons! Had to run to bus for work, feeling pretty sick !
Work was intense , extra intense because I was unwell. They got my shift covered for Friday more money lost. So really my Friday had been relax all day !
I thought I should only eat healthy , in order to speed up my recovery.
Jasmine Tea ! Bok Choy ! Egg ! Kimchi & chilli sauce to clear the nasal passage :DD
was a very successful lunch.
Ruined this healthy day with some greasy noodles & soft drink for dinner ._. “ oops.
Now to confirm my TAFE lessons online , then bed. Looking forward to starting TAFE ! I hope I can handle the work load (look out for stress related posts in the next month)
class deets, to put in on the website, which isn't working right now *_*
My first blog on a mac (had to use free computers downstairs from my apartment) .. So uncomfortable to use! I don't think I could ever own a mac ><"
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Sundays + Washing adventures.
I don't usually enjoy my sundays. Kind of like the whole monday shenanigan.. Sunday makes me feel, blegh. EXCEPT THIS SUNDAY !
Work started off pretty decent ! I had my doubts, but as I started, to my surprise, a fruit platter was sitting on the counter for us to eat :D and then some cute cupcakes!
Sadly, their is a rule against having phones on you during shift, so I couldn't get pictures.
One of the cafe managers were slightyly iffy about some pizza dough, so she cooked up a pizza to test it, so we had free pizza too !
Then, it got pretty busy.. I made myself a latte, then somebody cancelled their order for chicken nuggets and chips, so we ate them too !
I stayed back an extra 2 hours, time flew by ~
I felt like a fatty, ha !
So I took the stairs to my apartment tonight. 8th floor, it killed my legs. Hopefully with more practice, I can manage running the whole way :D
So I decided now was a good time to do my washing !
Took the stairs again. They are quite eerie , and smell of urine at some points.. until you get to floor 1 (second pic) and it becomes nice again.
Forgot washing powder =_= had to go fetch it, and start again.
The lifts break down often.. I can't imaging lugging my washing up 8 flights of stairs. Hopefully I never witness that.
View from first floor, laundry etc.
All in all, a pretty lame experience. $4 doesn't wash very well, and my clothes were still wet, but I had no more $1 coins on me so I settled with my damp clothes.
Relax mode, opened a beer, finished off some curry. I am enjoying my Sunday <3
On another note ! I plugged my webcam in for the first time in a few months. Looking at some of the pictures I think.. DID BRACES REALLY MAKE SUCH A DIFFERENCE? I looked so young O= ! I don't see that youthful face when I look into the mirror anymore >_<"
and, 3kg of oranges will go off if I don't eat them soon. I'm tempted to make a dessert with them. but what to do..?
Pointless post, Finito !
Work started off pretty decent ! I had my doubts, but as I started, to my surprise, a fruit platter was sitting on the counter for us to eat :D and then some cute cupcakes!
Sadly, their is a rule against having phones on you during shift, so I couldn't get pictures.
One of the cafe managers were slightyly iffy about some pizza dough, so she cooked up a pizza to test it, so we had free pizza too !
Then, it got pretty busy.. I made myself a latte, then somebody cancelled their order for chicken nuggets and chips, so we ate them too !
I stayed back an extra 2 hours, time flew by ~
I felt like a fatty, ha !
So I took the stairs to my apartment tonight. 8th floor, it killed my legs. Hopefully with more practice, I can manage running the whole way :D
So I decided now was a good time to do my washing !
Took the stairs again. They are quite eerie , and smell of urine at some points.. until you get to floor 1 (second pic) and it becomes nice again.
Forgot washing powder =_= had to go fetch it, and start again.
The lifts break down often.. I can't imaging lugging my washing up 8 flights of stairs. Hopefully I never witness that.
View from first floor, laundry etc.
All in all, a pretty lame experience. $4 doesn't wash very well, and my clothes were still wet, but I had no more $1 coins on me so I settled with my damp clothes.
Relax mode, opened a beer, finished off some curry. I am enjoying my Sunday <3
On another note ! I plugged my webcam in for the first time in a few months. Looking at some of the pictures I think.. DID BRACES REALLY MAKE SUCH A DIFFERENCE? I looked so young O= ! I don't see that youthful face when I look into the mirror anymore >_<"
and, 3kg of oranges will go off if I don't eat them soon. I'm tempted to make a dessert with them. but what to do..?
Pointless post, Finito !
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Hello, I am a woman.
This. This is what I want.
Anyways, while we are on the subject of being a woman, This is my kitchen ! haha :D I really enjoy living in town ! although it has its down sides too. Like the convenient pizza place next door and then the 24hr McDonalds next to that. I vowel everytime I give into temptation, I will take the stairs instead of the elevator. It never happened lol.
Anyways, Getting ready for dessert with Pris ! I decided to take photos of rooms in the home. I skipped my bedroom due to mess >_<
BUT THIS IS MY BATHROOM CABINET. My current, yet ongoing obsessions are Sebastian and TonyMoly products <3
http://www.sebastianprofessional.com/en_US/products/index.jsp
Sebastian is too expensive for my lack of money right now :C thankfully, my sister is the Accounts Manager at Proctor and gamble, for Wella and Sebastian Products, so I get it for free :D I recommend this product. And it smells so good <3
http://www.tonymoly.com/
Tonymoly, skin products ! I believe they work really well for my skin type ! It's hard to recommend skin products for others as everyones skin reacts differently to face products, otherwise I would say 100% get on this !! :D
that pretty much concludes my bathroom cabinet anyway ! Minus Rusk products and Redken , which I don't use as much since the Sebastian addiction. And the dry shampoo comes in handy every so often ^^
OK my saturday was pretty relaxing ! except being woken up by work calling, I decided to decline working because the past few shifts have taken alot out of me, I was really looking forward to the day off today !
I celebrated by lounging around with the bf , then had dinner and spoke to the house mates.
I decided on a healthy dinner because I was going out for dessert later on. Sesame flavoured rice crackers with Chilli and Mayo, Tuna & lettuce. then mixed veggies on the side.
we ordered some Curry Puffs & Roti Paratha for starters ~
We would usually go with a home-made lemon ice tea for the beverage, but I thought I would try something different.
Chai and Hot Chocolate, Amazing <3 ! new favorite.
Pear & Quince Vanilla Cake & Honey & Pomegranate Crème Brulee for dessert <3
Cannot wait until next months menu !
All in all, a rather successful Saturday !
Anyways, while we are on the subject of being a woman, This is my kitchen ! haha :D I really enjoy living in town ! although it has its down sides too. Like the convenient pizza place next door and then the 24hr McDonalds next to that. I vowel everytime I give into temptation, I will take the stairs instead of the elevator. It never happened lol.
Anyways, Getting ready for dessert with Pris ! I decided to take photos of rooms in the home. I skipped my bedroom due to mess >_<
BUT THIS IS MY BATHROOM CABINET. My current, yet ongoing obsessions are Sebastian and TonyMoly products <3
http://www.sebastianprofessional.com/en_US/products/index.jsp
Sebastian is too expensive for my lack of money right now :C thankfully, my sister is the Accounts Manager at Proctor and gamble, for Wella and Sebastian Products, so I get it for free :D I recommend this product. And it smells so good <3
http://www.tonymoly.com/
Tonymoly, skin products ! I believe they work really well for my skin type ! It's hard to recommend skin products for others as everyones skin reacts differently to face products, otherwise I would say 100% get on this !! :D
that pretty much concludes my bathroom cabinet anyway ! Minus Rusk products and Redken , which I don't use as much since the Sebastian addiction. And the dry shampoo comes in handy every so often ^^
OK my saturday was pretty relaxing ! except being woken up by work calling, I decided to decline working because the past few shifts have taken alot out of me, I was really looking forward to the day off today !
I celebrated by lounging around with the bf , then had dinner and spoke to the house mates.
I decided on a healthy dinner because I was going out for dessert later on. Sesame flavoured rice crackers with Chilli and Mayo, Tuna & lettuce. then mixed veggies on the side.
we ordered some Curry Puffs & Roti Paratha for starters ~
We would usually go with a home-made lemon ice tea for the beverage, but I thought I would try something different.
Chai and Hot Chocolate, Amazing <3 ! new favorite.
Pear & Quince Vanilla Cake & Honey & Pomegranate Crème Brulee for dessert <3
Cannot wait until next months menu !
All in all, a rather successful Saturday !
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
BoysBoysBoys ;;
I don't understand men.
Maybe i'm being sexist.. But a large majority of men don't seem to be phased by anything? Their actions could cause pain on somebody, but they won't seem to worry too much, if at all?
A good example, and the reason i'm writing about this.
Somebody important to me is doing something that will hurt his family badly. They don't approve of it, and not forgetting to mention in order to do this, he will go missing on them for 10 days. I ask him if he feels any feelings toward what he is doing, if he feels any bad feelings for lying or sneaking around, he says not at all.. yet, I'm here feeling the guilt instead? I don't like knowing things that could potentially cause pain and/or sadness of any kind on somebody else. Sometimes I wish I were a man lol, Care less. Or maybe i'm over exaggerating? Maybe I need a second opinion.
Maybe i'm being sexist.. But a large majority of men don't seem to be phased by anything? Their actions could cause pain on somebody, but they won't seem to worry too much, if at all?
A good example, and the reason i'm writing about this.
Somebody important to me is doing something that will hurt his family badly. They don't approve of it, and not forgetting to mention in order to do this, he will go missing on them for 10 days. I ask him if he feels any feelings toward what he is doing, if he feels any bad feelings for lying or sneaking around, he says not at all.. yet, I'm here feeling the guilt instead? I don't like knowing things that could potentially cause pain and/or sadness of any kind on somebody else. Sometimes I wish I were a man lol, Care less. Or maybe i'm over exaggerating? Maybe I need a second opinion.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
05 - A time you thought about ending your own life. 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
hmmm on a more deeper note now ~
OK without getting into deets, end of 2006 was the only time I was very sure I wanted nothing else. before that I had been depressed for 3 years, but not to the terrible extent that year. Obviously I overcome that, and everything is super :D !
Moving on !
30 Facts about myself !
These aren't interesting lol. But , here it goes ~
1. I hate feet touching me. I hate feet in general.
2. My life is set out a week in advance.
3. I have a thing for Bollywood movies >.<
4. It's hard for me to get bored.
5. I thoroughly enjoy public transport, I find it relaxing and good time to think.
6. Most of my plans / ideas are decided in the shower.
7. My tummy gets upset very easily.
8. I tend to get cold/flu aprox every month.
9. I LIKE PANDAS.
10. If I sing a song alone in my room, and I get a word wrong, I say 'oops' 0_0
11. I eat too much.
12. I stress myself out too easily.
13. I still hold teddys at night lol.
14. I have long toes.
15. Most of my money goes on food.
16. I like anchovies.
17. I hate the smell of chocolate.
18. Im allergic to red onions :C
19. I think no more than 5 hours sleep is the perfect amount for me, anything more and I feel sluggish.
20. I watch the Partridge Family, The Brady Bunch, and Degrassi and thoroughly enjoy it XD
21. Facebook is my most visited site.
22. I zone out easily.
23. My mind doesn't soak in knowledge well.
24. I'm pretty blind XD but I never wear my glasses outside of home.
25. My usual coffee is Vanilla Latte.
26. I LOVE CURRY.
27. I really enjoy writing
28. I find it hard to think of facts about myself >_<
29. My rib sticks out?
30. I feel weird without any necklaces.
Boring facts are boring.
OK without getting into deets, end of 2006 was the only time I was very sure I wanted nothing else. before that I had been depressed for 3 years, but not to the terrible extent that year. Obviously I overcome that, and everything is super :D !
Moving on !
30 Facts about myself !
These aren't interesting lol. But , here it goes ~
1. I hate feet touching me. I hate feet in general.
2. My life is set out a week in advance.
3. I have a thing for Bollywood movies >.<
4. It's hard for me to get bored.
5. I thoroughly enjoy public transport, I find it relaxing and good time to think.
6. Most of my plans / ideas are decided in the shower.
7. My tummy gets upset very easily.
8. I tend to get cold/flu aprox every month.
9. I LIKE PANDAS.
10. If I sing a song alone in my room, and I get a word wrong, I say 'oops' 0_0
11. I eat too much.
12. I stress myself out too easily.
13. I still hold teddys at night lol.
14. I have long toes.
15. Most of my money goes on food.
16. I like anchovies.
17. I hate the smell of chocolate.
18. Im allergic to red onions :C
19. I think no more than 5 hours sleep is the perfect amount for me, anything more and I feel sluggish.
20. I watch the Partridge Family, The Brady Bunch, and Degrassi and thoroughly enjoy it XD
21. Facebook is my most visited site.
22. I zone out easily.
23. My mind doesn't soak in knowledge well.
24. I'm pretty blind XD but I never wear my glasses outside of home.
25. My usual coffee is Vanilla Latte.
26. I LOVE CURRY.
27. I really enjoy writing
28. I find it hard to think of facts about myself >_<
29. My rib sticks out?
30. I feel weird without any necklaces.
Boring facts are boring.
2011 IS FINALLY HERE .
And of course, New Years resolutions are popping up !
I'm not going to make any big resolutions because, if I make massive life changing ones, and I end up failing, I will let myself down >_< so I will stick to small easier things to change !
This year I won't put others before myself ALL THE TIME. I still will. But if I think back on 2010, the things I would have done even though I didn't want to, and it ended up with people walking all over me, never made me happy. Making people makes me happy but people take it for granted. So from here onward, if I don't want to do something, I am going to say no, straight out ~
Eat less crap ! This one I AM SERIOUS ABOUT because I feel so sluggish recently ~
and I am not eating at correct times, like... 2am - 2pm - 10pm would be main meal times, for an example. and snacks in between of course.
Change sleeping pattern !
Seek new employment !
I am sort of intrigued to know more about extended family. I would like to spend some time with more of my family.
For now, that is about all I can think of !
I'm not going to make any big resolutions because, if I make massive life changing ones, and I end up failing, I will let myself down >_< so I will stick to small easier things to change !
This year I won't put others before myself ALL THE TIME. I still will. But if I think back on 2010, the things I would have done even though I didn't want to, and it ended up with people walking all over me, never made me happy. Making people makes me happy but people take it for granted. So from here onward, if I don't want to do something, I am going to say no, straight out ~
Eat less crap ! This one I AM SERIOUS ABOUT because I feel so sluggish recently ~
and I am not eating at correct times, like... 2am - 2pm - 10pm would be main meal times, for an example. and snacks in between of course.
Change sleeping pattern !
Seek new employment !
I am sort of intrigued to know more about extended family. I would like to spend some time with more of my family.
For now, that is about all I can think of !
Thursday, December 30, 2010
03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol. 04 - Your views on religion.
Ah ! I have been too busy, and I missed a day or 2 of posting! D:
OK so, number 3. My views on Drugs and Alcohol.
So not keen on drugs. I won't dislike people who do them, but I refuse to be a part of it. I think it's a foolish habbit to take up. but that is just my views. It doesn't affect me because I don't do them, so it's ok.
Drinking ! I don't agree with people going out gettin'SLIZZARRRRDDD every few nights, or every weekend. Occasionally I have a couple of beers, and occasionally I may over do it to the point that im drunk, but not a big mess on the ground. I know how much I can consume until it's way too much. I think that is ok.
Religion? not for me. Bible bashers annoy the **** out of me ! I think it's fine being religious , any religion , just not force beliefs on other people. That bothers me.
That is about it !
OK so, number 3. My views on Drugs and Alcohol.
So not keen on drugs. I won't dislike people who do them, but I refuse to be a part of it. I think it's a foolish habbit to take up. but that is just my views. It doesn't affect me because I don't do them, so it's ok.
Drinking ! I don't agree with people going out gettin'SLIZZARRRRDDD every few nights, or every weekend. Occasionally I have a couple of beers, and occasionally I may over do it to the point that im drunk, but not a big mess on the ground. I know how much I can consume until it's way too much. I think that is ok.
Religion? not for me. Bible bashers annoy the **** out of me ! I think it's fine being religious , any religion , just not force beliefs on other people. That bothers me.
That is about it !
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
Firstly! I would like to successfully have legs this nice XD
I don't like making future goals. To be honest, I will want to follow a certain path now, but I know myself and soon enough my ideas will change.
I want to be successful , have a well paying job, live in a very large house. A girl can dream. It takes knowledge and University to help this come true, I lack in both atm >.< !
I would like to have past knowledge on places I have visited! and also, still be visiting places 10 years from now ~
I would liked to have visited Paris, Japan & Korea by then.
That is about it D:
Right now, My future looks very bleak ><
Best change that asap.
Monday, December 27, 2010
01 - Your current relationship.
Just over 3 months of being under this 'label' has flown by ! Yet, I can't believe how much has happened in the past 3 months that we have overcome as well. Every obstacle we overcome, we learn from mistakes and become stronger as a couple.
I feel so cheesy writing about relationships ~__~
I have to say, I am very content with now.
Back to blogging !
30 Days
Let's see if I can stick to these ! I can never think of things to blog about, so.. Hopefully this will make me stick to it !
01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.
04 - Your views on religion.
05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.
06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
09 - How you hope your future will be like.
10 - Discuss your first love and first kiss.
11 - Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
12 - Bullet your whole day.
13 - Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
14 - Your earliest memory.
15 - Your favorite tumblrs blogs.
16 - Your views on mainstream music.
17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.
18 - Your beliefs.
19 - Disrespecting your parents.
20 - How important you think education is.
21 - One of your favorite shows.
22 - How have you changed in the past 2 years?
23 - Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive.
24 - Your favorite movie and what it’s about.
25 - Someone who fascinates you and why.
26 - What kind of person attracts you.
27 - A problem that you have had.
28 - Something that you miss.
29 - Goals for the next 30 days.
30 - Your highs and lows of this month.
Let's see if I can stick to these ! I can never think of things to blog about, so.. Hopefully this will make me stick to it !
01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.
04 - Your views on religion.
05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.
06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
09 - How you hope your future will be like.
10 - Discuss your first love and first kiss.
11 - Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
12 - Bullet your whole day.
13 - Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
14 - Your earliest memory.
15 - Your favorite tumblrs blogs.
16 - Your views on mainstream music.
17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.
18 - Your beliefs.
19 - Disrespecting your parents.
20 - How important you think education is.
21 - One of your favorite shows.
22 - How have you changed in the past 2 years?
23 - Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive.
24 - Your favorite movie and what it’s about.
25 - Someone who fascinates you and why.
26 - What kind of person attracts you.
27 - A problem that you have had.
28 - Something that you miss.
29 - Goals for the next 30 days.
30 - Your highs and lows of this month.
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Hospital Goals & Other rambling.
OKKKKOKOK so Im off to surgery on wednesday : D I hope for curry ! Actually? Im scared as hell. Because I don't know what to expect / never had surgery... And I don't want to miss my parents, I always bug my parents when im in pain =__= too dependant.
Anyway, I keep positive and im going to set Hospital Goals !! haha, Just for fun : D keep my mind distracted !
So !
Hospital Goal 1: Score all the food i eat out of 10! write what i like/ dislike about it.
Hospital Goal 2: Write a letter in Korean .____. !
Hospital Goal 3: Listen to Alchemy all the way through ! Including the bad Thai Hip Hop!
Hospital Goal 4: If they have foxtel, force self to watch Futurama ! I don't know why, I hate it, but maybe ill become immune to it, so when i go to my friend Michael's house, I can sit there without falling asleep.
Now for ramble. Ahh ! I love beer, So much. It's great but.... It seems whenever I go out with this certain guy 'friend' I seem to always get into trouble =__= I think it's because things have been confusing between both of us, since the day we met.. So we had a fight.. and i was seeing him saturday night that just passed, I thought things would be fine, because we would just, idk.. not talk. But he pulled me away and we spoke alot, and he gave me a present, and said some nice things, and i got sad, and THEN I LOST THE PRESENT ?!!! ahhh; that's just the half of it, somehow we ended up angry at each other again i think =___= then I fell down some stairs. Smart move with a bung rib lol.
ANYWAY a day to remember, that band, is on Yo Gaba Gaba right now |:
and now a girl who looks like my friend kathy, is feeding cartoon animals.
That is all.
Anyway, I keep positive and im going to set Hospital Goals !! haha, Just for fun : D keep my mind distracted !
So !
Hospital Goal 1: Score all the food i eat out of 10! write what i like/ dislike about it.
Hospital Goal 2: Write a letter in Korean .____. !
Hospital Goal 3: Listen to Alchemy all the way through ! Including the bad Thai Hip Hop!
Hospital Goal 4: If they have foxtel, force self to watch Futurama ! I don't know why, I hate it, but maybe ill become immune to it, so when i go to my friend Michael's house, I can sit there without falling asleep.
Now for ramble. Ahh ! I love beer, So much. It's great but.... It seems whenever I go out with this certain guy 'friend' I seem to always get into trouble =__= I think it's because things have been confusing between both of us, since the day we met.. So we had a fight.. and i was seeing him saturday night that just passed, I thought things would be fine, because we would just, idk.. not talk. But he pulled me away and we spoke alot, and he gave me a present, and said some nice things, and i got sad, and THEN I LOST THE PRESENT ?!!! ahhh; that's just the half of it, somehow we ended up angry at each other again i think =___= then I fell down some stairs. Smart move with a bung rib lol.
ANYWAY a day to remember, that band, is on Yo Gaba Gaba right now |:
and now a girl who looks like my friend kathy, is feeding cartoon animals.
That is all.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
reminisce on old Stick Bec. *sigh loudly.
Ahh ! so one thing i don't do often is look at old photos of myself, But i was browsing the computer , and I noticed one drastic change, THE AMOUNT OF WEIGHT I HAVE PUT ON THIS YEAR ! so now i will post some things i want back >< !
That was only last year O_O stick(ish) arms. I now have that whole, chicken wind thingo goin' on. Not attractive .___.
Again, Last year O= LEGS DIDN'T TOUCH. goddayyyym ;__; !
and to think, they used to be even skinnier when i was 16 =_=
Terrible photo , But I want these legs now please !
ok. enough pointless wishing !
That was only last year O_O stick(ish) arms. I now have that whole, chicken wind thingo goin' on. Not attractive .___.
Again, Last year O= LEGS DIDN'T TOUCH. goddayyyym ;__; !
and to think, they used to be even skinnier when i was 16 =_=
Terrible photo , But I want these legs now please !
ok. enough pointless wishing !
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Acute Costochondritis. About F*****G Time.
So like I say often, Long time no blog :D
I always get so lazy on blogging. I either have too much to write, or too little to write.
At the moment I have too much to write. I just decided now I will write a new update ^^ But the thing on my mind was work because I just called them, and work reminds me of my rib so I thought id write some boring post about the OUTCOME of my stupid ongoing rib shit. Im over talking about it though Dx because its so stupid and pointless, like, Who would have thought one small rib injury would cause so much stress =__= anyway final update to have anything to do with THAT injury. After a kajillion (over exaggeration obv) of doctor visits and doctors, and outcomes, we finally hit the nail on the head (maybe). I never believe any of it anymore, The amount of doctors who were like NAH YOU WILL BE FINE IN A FEW DAYS DON'T WORRY, and like ... "duurrrhuuurr uurrrhh its your uuuhhmm scoliosis you had a growth spurt uuuuhh uhhhh rib is fine bleerrgh" OK so i have always had Scoliosis and that hunch back thing but why a problem now? stfu .__.
The most annoying part of this WHOLE SHENANIGAN was
.
.
.
MY JOB !!!!
OK so I was told and know, the only person who knows what im capable of doing is me. True, right? yeah. well. My silly work have other plans. Like when it first happened i felt i should have been resting the WHOLE TIME sounds so lazy but pushing a trolley, walking up stairs, carrying heavy bags.. Was too painful, Id go home in excruciating pain S= Didn't understand why. But one of my manager people (who will remain nameless) decides NO Bec WILL be pushing that trolley full of stock because she's TOO SLOW carrying the items a couple at a time! the words "well she will just have to get over it" came out of her mouth, also. Anyway I snapped one day, because it was crazy painful.. and im like nope.. not doing this.. fuck it... and had a big rant (cry) to her and said im not capable of this and im so close to quitting because im so stressed bla bla winge winge but I thought it would get through but she was all HOW DO YOU THINK YOU WILL GET BETTER IF YOU REST, YOU NEED TO WORK THROUGH PAIN BLA BLA. I was thinking "D: .... shit. that was pointless!" and some negotiation was made, and i was put in smokeshop =__= under the same rules no bending no reaching no lifting etc etc (all of smokeshop is bending because all the smokes are low duurrhurr) anyway.. The amount of SHIT i got "Don't just stand there actually do something!" well.. i would but.. doctor says not to S= anyway, disobeying doctors orders and stocked smokeshop most of the time, left with excruciating pain again S= why why..
ANYWAY. ages of this.. I get sent to a specialist at RAH because I was getting worse, nothing was helping, Physio was worried I needed surgery. Specialist lets me know i have Acute Costochondritis. I was all oh ok S= and he said my work was stupid because its the kind of thing where you do NOTHING that will cause you to tense and feel pain. So he sent me home with a 6 week (told people it was two months |:..oops, i thought thats what he said, unless my next app is in 6 weeks and it is 2 months idk S=) sick certificate ! To finally maybe get better. Un named manager and 2 certain bitchy supervisors better feel a tad guilty for being such assholes.. i was so close to just being like FUCK YOU ALL ID RATHER BE POOR THAN PUT UP WITH THIS PAIN AND YOUR BITCHING but yeah no. Im never this angsty ! but they really did stress me out to the extent I would come home close to tears =____= ;; They act like im after some "special attention" because of my rib, like im prancing it around to get my own way.. which makes me feel so little .__. ; esp since it happened at work anyway, They are fully aware of the pain I was in the day it happened.
Anyway, because there were so many different rib injuries (back injuries..even sprained arm?LOL) thrown at me.. I looked up this Acute Costochondritis.. to see if it actually makes sence to me.. im thinking it does.
Signs & Symptoms
Initially the symptoms may feel like those of a heart attack: pain moving from side to side of the chest and to the arms and neck. Some sufferers find it more difficult to breathe, but there is usually no reason for alarm when the cause of these symptoms is costochondritis.
During the acute phase, pain is usually worse and it hurts to breathe, wear a bra or move suddenly. Eventually the pain subsides to a dull, constant ache or tenderness in the ribs. The symptoms often disappear within two months but may take up to a year or even become a chronic condition. When chronic, the pain seems to come and go with sudden movements or lifting heavy objects.
Stress may contribute to the pain because it makes the muscles tense. Other things that hurt are lifting, pushing, pulling, sneezing, coughing, long hours of driving or using the computer, repetitive motions and caffeine. Cold, rainy and humid weather also make some sufferers feel worse. Even sinusitis, with the associated nose blowing can be the initial event that results in this chronic chest pain.
(http://www.diagnose-me.com/cond/C598186.html)
The specialist said when i come back if im not feeling better, they will do surgery.. something about taking out something and letting a new muscle form idk.
Basically the outcome is, Take these meds and be a potato :D
I can't complain.
UGH this blog is too long and too srs !
I will update more frequently so im not only throwing this kind of boring news @ everyone.
:D
I always get so lazy on blogging. I either have too much to write, or too little to write.
At the moment I have too much to write. I just decided now I will write a new update ^^ But the thing on my mind was work because I just called them, and work reminds me of my rib so I thought id write some boring post about the OUTCOME of my stupid ongoing rib shit. Im over talking about it though Dx because its so stupid and pointless, like, Who would have thought one small rib injury would cause so much stress =__= anyway final update to have anything to do with THAT injury. After a kajillion (over exaggeration obv) of doctor visits and doctors, and outcomes, we finally hit the nail on the head (maybe). I never believe any of it anymore, The amount of doctors who were like NAH YOU WILL BE FINE IN A FEW DAYS DON'T WORRY, and like ... "duurrrhuuurr uurrrhh its your uuuhhmm scoliosis you had a growth spurt uuuuhh uhhhh rib is fine bleerrgh" OK so i have always had Scoliosis and that hunch back thing but why a problem now? stfu .__.
The most annoying part of this WHOLE SHENANIGAN was
.
.
.
MY JOB !!!!
OK so I was told and know, the only person who knows what im capable of doing is me. True, right? yeah. well. My silly work have other plans. Like when it first happened i felt i should have been resting the WHOLE TIME sounds so lazy but pushing a trolley, walking up stairs, carrying heavy bags.. Was too painful, Id go home in excruciating pain S= Didn't understand why. But one of my manager people (who will remain nameless) decides NO Bec WILL be pushing that trolley full of stock because she's TOO SLOW carrying the items a couple at a time! the words "well she will just have to get over it" came out of her mouth, also. Anyway I snapped one day, because it was crazy painful.. and im like nope.. not doing this.. fuck it... and had a big rant (cry) to her and said im not capable of this and im so close to quitting because im so stressed bla bla winge winge but I thought it would get through but she was all HOW DO YOU THINK YOU WILL GET BETTER IF YOU REST, YOU NEED TO WORK THROUGH PAIN BLA BLA. I was thinking "D: .... shit. that was pointless!" and some negotiation was made, and i was put in smokeshop =__= under the same rules no bending no reaching no lifting etc etc (all of smokeshop is bending because all the smokes are low duurrhurr) anyway.. The amount of SHIT i got "Don't just stand there actually do something!" well.. i would but.. doctor says not to S= anyway, disobeying doctors orders and stocked smokeshop most of the time, left with excruciating pain again S= why why..
ANYWAY. ages of this.. I get sent to a specialist at RAH because I was getting worse, nothing was helping, Physio was worried I needed surgery. Specialist lets me know i have Acute Costochondritis. I was all oh ok S= and he said my work was stupid because its the kind of thing where you do NOTHING that will cause you to tense and feel pain. So he sent me home with a 6 week (told people it was two months |:..oops, i thought thats what he said, unless my next app is in 6 weeks and it is 2 months idk S=) sick certificate ! To finally maybe get better. Un named manager and 2 certain bitchy supervisors better feel a tad guilty for being such assholes.. i was so close to just being like FUCK YOU ALL ID RATHER BE POOR THAN PUT UP WITH THIS PAIN AND YOUR BITCHING but yeah no. Im never this angsty ! but they really did stress me out to the extent I would come home close to tears =____= ;; They act like im after some "special attention" because of my rib, like im prancing it around to get my own way.. which makes me feel so little .__. ; esp since it happened at work anyway, They are fully aware of the pain I was in the day it happened.
Anyway, because there were so many different rib injuries (back injuries..even sprained arm?LOL) thrown at me.. I looked up this Acute Costochondritis.. to see if it actually makes sence to me.. im thinking it does.
Signs & Symptoms
Initially the symptoms may feel like those of a heart attack: pain moving from side to side of the chest and to the arms and neck. Some sufferers find it more difficult to breathe, but there is usually no reason for alarm when the cause of these symptoms is costochondritis.
During the acute phase, pain is usually worse and it hurts to breathe, wear a bra or move suddenly. Eventually the pain subsides to a dull, constant ache or tenderness in the ribs. The symptoms often disappear within two months but may take up to a year or even become a chronic condition. When chronic, the pain seems to come and go with sudden movements or lifting heavy objects.
Stress may contribute to the pain because it makes the muscles tense. Other things that hurt are lifting, pushing, pulling, sneezing, coughing, long hours of driving or using the computer, repetitive motions and caffeine. Cold, rainy and humid weather also make some sufferers feel worse. Even sinusitis, with the associated nose blowing can be the initial event that results in this chronic chest pain.
(http://www.diagnose-me.com/cond/C598186.html)
The specialist said when i come back if im not feeling better, they will do surgery.. something about taking out something and letting a new muscle form idk.
Basically the outcome is, Take these meds and be a potato :D
I can't complain.
UGH this blog is too long and too srs !
I will update more frequently so im not only throwing this kind of boring news @ everyone.
:D
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Loving the singer Outsider at the moment.
Long time no blog! I don't really like to blog about myself unless something exciting happens, but not alot of excitement or things worth blogging about, so ill blog about something that has interested me recently.
Outsider. a Korean rapper. I dont know why, i dont know korean well enough but his lyrics give me chills D: He is known for his fast rapping, so when u listen to it, being english it just sounds like iduhiufhduifuibguiifuighbf alot of the time, but it all blends in nicely , and once you read the english translation, its like, ahh <3 your amazing Outsider. (his lyrics are quite emotional and negative but, it still amazes me)
Instead of me rambling ill just post a video, and then the lyrics underneath.
His newest single, Acquaintance.
Passion of life, such thing as hope, it doesn't exist
I'm breathing simply out of life
My body feels ok, it's nothing special
And yet I feel like I'm drowning
World suffocates me endlessly
My heart closed only halfway
I put a lock on that door
Locks rusted away from an ethereal loneliness
I turn my key out (key out)
Alienation from answers, held on my shackles
It suffocates me (it suffocates me)
Picking up the phone that never rings
I wait for your call all night (all night)
I need your interest, I need your conversation
I need your hand, I need even small love
Please light the fuse that's fading away...
I can't blend in here, there, anywhere
I can't belong to you, her, anyone else
I walk down restlessly around you (around you) (x2)
Will the moon understand my loneliness?
Wonder if the stars understand my scars
Buried in affliction, I sing this song
Graved in loneliness, I call out your name (x2)
I walk down restlessly around you (around you)
I walk around because I fear of change
Broken from the love of chains, I sing to find the one
Following the wind and the cloud, I wander the world
Where did you go, leaving me here, I do not know
You left me over there to the place no one knows
I wanna leave this behind
Thirst for love, I'm always in hunger
I even miss the tip of your fingers
Undermined our interest, love seems like a luxury
Sometimes the thing that always follows me
When my shadow is covered by the moon, I draw you in my heart
I recite on myself
Every day, I am fear of life endlessly
Wanna see you, touch you, feel you
I can only say those words, I bite on my pitifulness
I can't blend in here, there, anywhere
I can't belong to you, her, anyone else
I walk down restlessly around you (around you) (x2)
Will the moon understand my loneliness?
Wonder if the stars understand my scars
Buried in affliction, I sing this song
Graved in loneliness, I call out your name (x2)
I can't blend in here, there, anywhere
I can't belong to you, her, anyone else
I walk down restlessly around you (around you) (x2)
Will the moon understand my loneliness?
Wonder if the stars understand my scars
Buried in affliction, I sing this song
Graved in loneliness, I call out your name (x2)
Friday, April 23, 2010
OMG @ RANDOM SHIT I USED TO SAY WHEN I WAS 14
I found some old sites i used to have, and i look back on how i was and shudder. its like, was i that dumb? At age 14 i thought i found the guy i was going to marry xD i was lame - and im FAR from like that now geez, guys dont go near me with a ten foot pole and i dont let them >_< and im pretty sure id never speak like im about to post coz reading it i was like BLEEEEEGH EW AS IF I WAS MOOSHY AND DISGUSTING AND LIKE WHYYYY. anyway, were we together for 6 months when i wrote this? I wrote this on one of my sites about an ex \:
andrew i seriously truely deeply love you we talk about ANYTHING and i have no doubts and i know we will last for a long time. theres so much i can say but i dont have the words.. you are my everything and i would be nothing without you im so lucky to have you its a dream come true i still cant believe it it feels like a dream. you are in my mind 24/7 its good but sux because im not with you all the time... my heart hurts when im not around you i need you you have so much going for you you are so special to me. you are the one that makes me want to get up in the morning ur the one that makes me happy and i love you to death my andrew xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
static x and bananas are a good combination..
I have no idea what i would do without you i feel i cant even spend a day without you. i never want to lose you and ill NEVER forget you your the love of my life n u mean the world to me xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Wierd bec, Just, Wierd.
I think on that and i remember how i felt back then, vaguely. I to this day dont know what love is but im only 18 and people like above, 14 yr old bec.. was all STUFF WHAT EVERYONE THINKS I KNOW IM IN LOVE. how silly kids are.
andrew i seriously truely deeply love you we talk about ANYTHING and i have no doubts and i know we will last for a long time. theres so much i can say but i dont have the words.. you are my everything and i would be nothing without you im so lucky to have you its a dream come true i still cant believe it it feels like a dream. you are in my mind 24/7 its good but sux because im not with you all the time... my heart hurts when im not around you i need you you have so much going for you you are so special to me. you are the one that makes me want to get up in the morning ur the one that makes me happy and i love you to death my andrew xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
static x and bananas are a good combination..
I have no idea what i would do without you i feel i cant even spend a day without you. i never want to lose you and ill NEVER forget you your the love of my life n u mean the world to me xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Wierd bec, Just, Wierd.
I think on that and i remember how i felt back then, vaguely. I to this day dont know what love is but im only 18 and people like above, 14 yr old bec.. was all STUFF WHAT EVERYONE THINKS I KNOW IM IN LOVE. how silly kids are.
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