Loving the singer Outsider at the moment.

Long time no blog! I don't really like to blog about myself unless something exciting happens, but not alot of excitement or things worth blogging about, so ill blog about something that has interested me recently.
Outsider. a Korean rapper. I dont know why, i dont know korean well enough but his lyrics give me chills D: He is known for his fast rapping, so when u listen to it, being english it just sounds like iduhiufhduifuibguiifuighbf alot of the time, but it all blends in nicely , and once you read the english translation, its like, ahh <3 your amazing Outsider. (his lyrics are quite emotional and negative but, it still amazes me)
Instead of me rambling ill just post a video, and then the lyrics underneath.

His newest single, Acquaintance.



Passion of life, such thing as hope, it doesn't exist
I'm breathing simply out of life
My body feels ok, it's nothing special
And yet I feel like I'm drowning
World suffocates me endlessly
My heart closed only halfway
I put a lock on that door
Locks rusted away from an ethereal loneliness
I turn my key out (key out)
Alienation from answers, held on my shackles
It suffocates me (it suffocates me)
Picking up the phone that never rings
I wait for your call all night (all night)
I need your interest, I need your conversation
I need your hand, I need even small love
Please light the fuse that's fading away...

I can't blend in here, there, anywhere
I can't belong to you, her, anyone else
I walk down restlessly around you (around you) (x2)
Will the moon understand my loneliness?
Wonder if the stars understand my scars
Buried in affliction, I sing this song
Graved in loneliness, I call out your name (x2)

I walk down restlessly around you (around you)
I walk around because I fear of change
Broken from the love of chains, I sing to find the one
Following the wind and the cloud, I wander the world
Where did you go, leaving me here, I do not know
You left me over there to the place no one knows
I wanna leave this behind
Thirst for love, I'm always in hunger
I even miss the tip of your fingers
Undermined our interest, love seems like a luxury
Sometimes the thing that always follows me
When my shadow is covered by the moon, I draw you in my heart
I recite on myself
Every day, I am fear of life endlessly
Wanna see you, touch you, feel you
I can only say those words, I bite on my pitifulness

I can't blend in here, there, anywhere
I can't belong to you, her, anyone else
I walk down restlessly around you (around you) (x2)
Will the moon understand my loneliness?
Wonder if the stars understand my scars
Buried in affliction, I sing this song
Graved in loneliness, I call out your name (x2)

I can't blend in here, there, anywhere
I can't belong to you, her, anyone else
I walk down restlessly around you (around you) (x2)
Will the moon understand my loneliness?
Wonder if the stars understand my scars
Buried in affliction, I sing this song
Graved in loneliness, I call out your name (x2)

OMG @ RANDOM SHIT I USED TO SAY WHEN I WAS 14

I found some old sites i used to have, and i look back on how i was and shudder. its like, was i that dumb? At age 14 i thought i found the guy i was going to marry xD i was lame - and im FAR from like that now geez, guys dont go near me with a ten foot pole and i dont let them >_< and im pretty sure id never speak like im about to post coz reading it i was like BLEEEEEGH EW AS IF I WAS MOOSHY AND DISGUSTING AND LIKE WHYYYY. anyway, were we together for 6 months when i wrote this? I wrote this on one of my sites about an ex \:

andrew i seriously truely deeply love you we talk about ANYTHING and i have no doubts and i know we will last for a long time. theres so much i can say but i dont have the words.. you are my everything and i would be nothing without you im so lucky to have you its a dream come true i still cant believe it it feels like a dream. you are in my mind 24/7 its good but sux because im not with you all the time... my heart hurts when im not around you i need you you have so much going for you you are so special to me. you are the one that makes me want to get up in the morning ur the one that makes me happy and i love you to death my andrew xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
static x and bananas are a good combination..
I have no idea what i would do without you i feel i cant even spend a day without you. i never want to lose you and ill NEVER forget you your the love of my life n u mean the world to me xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo


Wierd bec, Just, Wierd.
I think on that and i remember how i felt back then, vaguely. I to this day dont know what love is but im only 18 and people like above, 14 yr old bec.. was all STUFF WHAT EVERYONE THINKS I KNOW IM IN LOVE. how silly kids are.

MY BORING POST ABOUT ANIMAL CROSSING

Wellwellwell, I have had absolutely nothing entertaining to blog about since my rib injury, so enjoy my non interesting new entry.
So what happened this week?
how exciting uuh, miffy went for her first walk?

so exciting, what else.. Ah yeah ! speaking of which, Angelica told me to take heaps of photos of my dog Tara because shes 15, and i should keep the memories there, just incase she passes. So i attempted and Miffy kept photobombing >_< !



That was an exciting uh .. day |:
Anyway, when my real life is as boring as this, I seem to focus more on virtual life n_n
ANIMAL CROSSING <3

This week is exciting because its the Flower Fest, i dont give a crap about the prize (a trophy) id prob end up trying to sell it to pay off my mortgage anyway, i just thought it would be fun to be better than all my neighbours and have a better looking house ^^
and if their garden gets better, i steal some more flowers heeeeheee. i play fair !



Thats my garden on monday when it started ^^ its now wednesday and its grown, but my flowers keep dying \:
I hate how much these sorts of things absorb my mind, Like.. when i went through my final fantasy phase, i wouldnt sleep O_O and i would just play constantly and eventually sleep then dream i was still playing it and BLEEERGH bad life to lead !

But im excited because, Tom Nooks store grew : D (nobody will find this blog interesting unless they play it, then even prob not)


yayay ~

aaand i have a favourite Neighbour, Pudge.. because he loves food and is always talking about food C=


But at the moment im most happy because, Wart.Jr is an asshole usually, all "what the hell do you want?!!" sort of thing, but today ! he was a changed man *proud*



haha... anyway ... welcome to the exciting life of Bec =__=
i hope you enjoyed wasting 5mins of your time C=< HEEEHEEEHEEEE

Seeeeriously.

I always get caught up in other peoples problems.
Either im nosey, or they are just to open about things.
Sometimes i think, ARE YOU EFFING SERIOUS?
some people who think life is over , due to something so small.
or, not so small but "My mum banned me from seing my bf" anything like that, Yeah is a bummer but people go to extremes and say that they have the worst lives ever, over such things.
Pisses me off especially, when people compare lives to other people. For example "your life is a bed of roses compared to mine" Maybe some just arent, yelling out the fualt in their lives to the world, because not everybody needs to hear it, and some of it is just unessesary.
Not against the people who vent to a close friend and stuff, Im over some of the things i read on facebook sometimes and think WOW SHE CANT BE SERIOUS.
One i found amusing is life being over, due to not getting what they wanted for xmas (expensive phone).
I always just say, There are people starving , people with no home and no family. They dont get christmas >_< quit your bitching.
I dont know why this subject angers me so much.
I just think some people are selfish like this.
End Rant.

Sladjana stole my prawn

I guess i have failed at writing in my blog everyday, hey ._.
I guess i better recap on whats been going on.
Did i write how im back from annual leave and at work again?
prob not, well im back ! 3 shifts in and i pop my rib. or... dislocate of fracture or w/e. Doctor didnt give me alot of information and i should get a call later today to go in to discuss my xray. tried to get a photo of it but its abit dodjy \\:



coulda just cut out everything so it was just the rib buut, couldnt be bothered.
haha, love heart birth mark on my other rib X]



Standing up view.
So i cant go to work for a while, i cant really breathe properly \\\:

Anyways! Saturday was quite a good night, my childhood friend came down from melb for 2 days and we had dinner :) It was so good to catch up with her and my 2 old Underdale friends :DD !
I got a tad sad because i was unhappy when Angelica (the childhod friend) decided to leave to live with her bf, and then having her back for a day was so much fun i hated that she left again :C




Olivia and Angelica, then Angelica and Sladjana <3
We drank lots of wine and ate lots of pasta :DD

Ohter than those two things, thats all that has been going on in the past 10 days :)
Except aparently the dresses i ordered 2 months ago will be arriving today *waits patiently* no need for them now that its Autumn. Watching stacks of the OC and drinking stacks of Dr. Pepper <3
Ill leave this here with a picture of miffy attacking me X]


<3

JOHN FOSTER, DIE IN A FIRE !

a BIT of a spoiler..

"End scene for Skins 4"

COOK watches FOSTER. Something gleaming in his eye.
COOK: Mr Foster
JOHN FOSTER: Dr Foster actually. Kneel down please...
COOK slowly shakes his head. The BASEBALL BAT snakes out without warning and catches COOK in the Stomach. COOK staggers back...gasping. But then inexplicably he laughs.
COOK: I don’t think you know what I am mate
JOHN FOSTER: I think I do. You’re nothing. You don’t deserve that girl... And, you know...I do.
COOK shakes his head slowly.
COOK: I’m a fucking waste of space... Just a stupid kid... I got no sense....A criminal...I’m no fucking use...I am nothing...so please... please... get it into your...you know...into your bonce....That you killed my friend.... And...(HE SHRUGS) ... I’m Cook. He explodes towards FOSTER without warning fists, feet, everything. Devastating aggression. He screams, whirling past us in a blur.
COOK (CONT’D): I’M COOK!!!!!!
BLACKOUT.
ENDS.

FFFKNG LAME !
I like how, a whole awesome season can be shit from one shit ending.
Did cook kill him? he JUST found out his best friends dead and he was pretty calm about it! and yet, ALL of "dead guy" friends think he ran away! so in the end, no recognition for him, and cook *saves the day* but really, did he? WE DONT KNOW BECAUSE IT ENDED AS HE THREW A PUNCH!!

fkng gay. fkng. gay.

Anyway.. on a uh, happy note ^^ !
The election is on !
Go Liberal.

Im capped so, Lame post o: no pictures today. I didnt do much at all, i woke up late then went food shopping, then went on the computer, made dinner, then back here again :) eventful saturday, this is how it should be spent <3

Alice In Wonderland 3D

Today i had quite a busy day : D
I had a meeting at 9 with a teacher then a flow coordinator..
who seems more like a counselor o: she gave off a, counselor vibe.
which wasn't.. what i expected. I felt all i did the whole morning was so pointless,
and my Contract that was written out , Sounded so childish.
Interviews, and.. for some reason... i have to write about how important work is to the community. Its like.. WHAT IS THIS.. PRIMARY? i guess i should be happy for easy work |:
but anyway after that i quickly grabbed coffee with my friend Terence coz i got out of my meeting at 10:30 and had to be on a bus at 11 to get to the city by 1 for meeting with Pris! Michael met me on the bus because he was off to uni :)

Met up with Pris, NANDOS.. RUN OUT OF CHICKEN? i don't quite understand why they didn't reason with us but yeah \:
So we got 1 quarter of a chicken because thats all the could give us. I got subway which was SO PACKED ! the whole place was pretty packed ,damn lunch rush hour o:
After this we went to look through some shops then to the cinemas.
THE STAIRS WERE SO GOOD O__O and the bathroom surprised me !!




Me and Pris ^-^ she had such a nice dress on o:

The seats were even comfy :)
I didnt get any pictures of the stairs , though.

Alice in wonderland was a good movie !! it was quite funny actually >.<
The mad Hatter and the hare XD ! my favourites.
I very much hope i dont look like Anne Hathaway |: really.!

Anyway bus ride home my tummy was growling and angry at me for some reason .
I didnt think much of it but i had to go to the toilet as soon as i got into the train st and knew i was sick D:
Got off the train at 5:50 and waited for Alex and Michael. We went to Fresh choice for dinner ^^ and met Ashley there. It was fun but i was feeling really ill O:
I decided.. the tuna must not have been fresh, esp with the heat atm and being so close to the door and the rush hour.. maybe a bit risky !


Caught in mid conversation. I should have taken more photos !!



Ashley ...eats with lemons in her mouth. umm yeah .__.
We had some random as conversations though and we were acting like little kids really xD

Ashley " i got soysauce in my watermelon ! "
Me " .... Thats what she said.. >_>"

and like ..

Ashley *singing some twilight parody about vagina*
Me not aware what shes singing "What does it taste like ??"

Yeah. thats all i can remember. we are so mature ._____."" !

Was heaps fun but i had to get Alex to pull over coz i felt like throwing up O:
*stays away from tuna for a while*
Thats all for now !