Fishing for the answer with a line and sinker

Uggggh. Whats wrong with me ;__;
this is going bad.

So this morning at 9 im at work just doing my thaang, then a hot cross bun comes through and BLEGH so close to vomitting! then after then, i was shaking and my heart was racing and all that saliva rushing to my mouth :| and i had to leave my register. then im over the toilet with water. super :)
So anyway i went home sick. This keeps happening to me though and its really strange.
Ill be perfectly fine then all of a sudden something suddenly triggers my stomach to hate me and i cant do anything but sleep!
When i was up stairs drinking my water i felt like i was going to fall asleep :||
but half an hour before that i was ecstatic and happy and full of energy !

Anyway now... its looking like im in the bad books and paulas wondering whether to FIRE ME??? IS THAT POSSIBLE??!! i mean... ffs. Last time i was sick was with gastro the day after christmas. and the shift after that one i came in anyway even though i had it and they had to send me home .
I swear im the only one in my store who doesnt go out every weekend and get shit faced too. Every time i call in sick its legit ! so this makes me sad :C
and i really need the money.
I wish i knew what was wrong with mee :,CC

MR TADAKICHI n_n

I wish i was small enough to ride a dog ;___;

In a perfect world, these things would not exist.

hoiiii! >:]



Ahhh !
2010...
starting a new blog. As i usually say, Íll update regularly!'
i hope too though !

mmmm :\ so far, this year has sucked really.
I liked last year, it was like , i didnt have a care in the world.
something goes wrong id just go, well, thats ok :D it will sort out !
I HAVE LOST MY MOJOOOOOOO

I swear from January the 1st, its just been down hill. Seriously too much crap to mention :|
I hope to get back on my feet soon !
Im usually such a positive person but recently i feel like every little thing
has made me pisssssed !
Maybe its to do with, finished school. soooo lost on my future and it scares me.
Woolworths workers are being absolute asses :\\ and sick of it.
And the move, the family stuff, the stresses of living a kajillion miles from where i wish to be. If i want a future, this makes it that tad harder . I would say its my fualt for not even considering to get my licence, but the move was very sudden and no discussion was involved.

I was always so good with my money! but tbh, i never really had much to pay off!
i dont really atm, but phone breaking then mysteriously high bill, accidently not paying $4 of my old bill then getting charged late fee's , oops. owing people unexpectedly all adds up.
i spent my small amount of savings... on internet,, that didnt even work -___-;;

WHATS THIS YEAR BRINGING ME?
DEBT?... STRESS?... FRUSTERATION?

OK enough rant. it will get better. i guess i have put too much pressure on myself to succeed and everytime i fail i just go FFS BEC YOU STUPID HOE FACE STOP LETTING YOURSELF DOWN!!

I got a puppy today :) Miffy <3


i only got one picture.. because Miffy wont stay still.
And my dog Tara hates Evie with a passion today, everytime Evie goes near... Tara attacks!
i hope this wont happen much longer :\\ poor evie's spending most of the night hiding under the table.

hhhrrrrm, i want to get a gym membership, just tone up & be fit because im soooo unfit D:
I wonder if there are any decent gyms sort of near me.
After i pay all my phone crap, ill look into that :D